Reachable Rays is an anagram of my first and last name.
“People get mad when you treat them how they treat you.”
My mom brought me my Christmas presents early and now they’re under my tree calling my name. It’s not like she’ll know if I open them early but damn i’d feel so guilty. There’s some art supplies I want to put to use already…
It’s difficult to find a large crew of creative people to work with when ego becomes a huge part of it. I used to want to be in a band when i was a teen, when i went to concerts after school and warped tour and all that jazz. But, that never worked out for three reasons: I had no attention span when it came to learning an instrument, working in a band means depending on multiple people and, again, I HAD NO ATTENTION SPAN WHEN IT CAME TO LEARNING AN INSTRUMENT. The only truly creative person who I’ve worked with that isn’t a stranger (and who i obviously will continue to work with) who has mutual respect when it comes to our abilities and the work that goes into it is Kev Bars. He also has the critical thinking skills necessary to know that I lead a life outside of the art that I do and doesn’t pressure me into doing things as if they’re “easy” and “not time consuming”. It sucks to know that i’ve wasted my time on certain people, especially when I thought these people and “artists”(…hah!) to be good friends.
Don’t depend on an apparent support system. I look at it like it’s a relationship, don’t be dependent. Make sure you’re self assured and talented enough to stand on your own as an artist, even if you’re in a crew. The best crews are comprised of actual individuals with the ability to create on their own (Wu Tang…HELLO!). It quickly became very obvious to me that the people I wanted to associate myself with are looking for an easy and half assed way to 15 minutes of recognition and the 5 minutes of getting good pussy that comes along with it. They see this crew thing as a bandwagon to hop on to and have no trouble throwing people under the bus to get what they need. But they fail to critically think about that (as they’ve been guilty of before). When you think of hip-hop groups nowadays they are made up of actual individuals for the most part, such as Pro Era or Black Hippy. But even those groups have stand out artists who, arguably to others, would be considered to be the best out of all of them (Joey Bada$$ or Kendrick). Or there’s even the “crew” tactic used by Mac Miller who just has the same group of non musicians follow him around, which allows for him to make his fans feel like they are a part of the crew as well (hence, Most Dope). But these people, the ones I loathe so much, they can’t even depend on themselves to create a full song or even have to ability to articulate anything positive. It’s all about this vague positivity masked by heavy acid/mushroom use. They have no idea what’s going on in politics or society yet claim to be about change and overcoming a “struggle”. It’s just about adopting an image to sell to people (along with their terrible hand painted apparel) despite their messages of “non materialism”. But it’s fine. They have nothing else since they failed to take themselves seriously early enough to plan for adulthood.
It should’ve been clear to me that I shouldn’t extend my services or support to people I know personally since that time i tried contacting a dude on their Tumblr and he acted like i was a complete psychopath for finding him (by chance). It’s either about using me or making me feel like an asshole despite my efforts to respectfully work with people.
As for me and what i do, I decided to make beats because it’s primarily a solo thing, and I’m actually quite good at it (but still not as good as I can be…yet). It allows me to still work with all the music I’ve been inspired by and I have the ability to create my own artwork to go along with it. I have no dependence and can carefully choose who I want to give a beat to or even work on visuals with/for, likely i will choose strangers. I am working on things slowly because I still have school to finish, which will work as my back up plan for my career and also my place of networking. No matter what, I’m working in the arts whether i’m renowned or not and I’ll have the right connections.
Sorry for the long blog post but not really since it’s my blog and the definition of blog is:
blog[ blawg, blog ]
1. a Web site containing the writer’s or group of writers’ own experiences, observations, opinions, etc., and often having images and links to other Web sites.
So if you stop following me for this, technically you are an idiot and just as bad as these hacks I’m speaking of.
“I used to think the worst thing in life was to end up all alone. It’s not. The worst thing in life is to end up with people who make you feel all alone.”
Robin Williams (via onlinecounsellingcollege)